Capturing Euphoria

 I tried pandemic sex and felt that it was a waste of money. Penetration with a facemask on limits the number of things that I would like to do. It's like a kid before a candy jar that is sealed.

And actually, I have less sex drive staying at home all the time, even though I still browse classified all the time. I wonder why. In normal times, I would have craved for women within a week of celibacy. Porn and cam girls will excite me if I let them.

One morning it dawned on me that the most important preparation for sex is digestion. Laying in bed, I felt so good because all my excess food was about to be completely digested. It is such a no-brainer. Maybe I'm not so young anymore. But even when I was younger, I can feel sleepy after a heavy lunch. And I almost never get drunk because I will fall asleep before I get to that state. If I drink a glass of wine at dinner, I cannot work late at night.

The body needs energy and attention to digest food. Food is an obstacle if it's in the body. When the food is completely digested, you are full of energy without any burden on your body. 

That explains that I almost start my sex day in the morning. That's most likely the time I am without food in the stomach. I always feel that a light breakfast suits me and I often skip it. It's the same thing for lunch. If I book somebody I often skip it. I feel so much better eating after sex. If I overdo it, the skipping, I take an apple and I will be like a tiger. It was documented here before.

And I can afford to get the sex over with before starting the day. It's the same as finishing everything in the day and then focus on sex. But then it will be too late to book anybody. It's so silly that many people and agencies don't take bookings in the morning.

So my favorite time is just before lunch. I won't feel anything if I skip breakfast. And by lunchtime, it will be busy. If I eat lunch, I won't have sex immediately and won't have sex when everybody starts getting off work. So the other favorite time is 3 pm, hotel check-in time.

So it happens that testosterone, produced while sleeping, is highest in the morning. And for female hormones, the optimum time is 3 pm. Does this explain that ladies check-in at that time?

So the conclusion is that I eat too much because of staying at home too much. The grocery bill is skyrocketing while the other expenses are plummeting. It's just so easy when you can order at different stores and get them delivered at the door in 2 hours or less. I have time to spare doing the ordering and supervising remotely.

But I don't abuse my guts. I eat the same dinner. But perhaps the food is nicer so I eat more unconsciously. I always have a full range of healthy snacks. It is a sure way to kill the sex drive and save money. But I feel that my belly is getting a little bigger and heavier.

Once I get my sex drive back, the other element is eye candy. So I subscribed to the girl that I was most impressed with. It's so easy now. I remember when I started, having a personal porn website is a big deal. You have to hire professionals to design it and get the payment done. And Chanel looked up to her friends who can show their faces in public and have a website. Nowadays it's Onlyfans, Patreons, and even Instagram, with the combination of cam sites.

Then I need intimacy. It's like being left alone by all others in the world so we can do whatever we wanted. But since I'm alone I don't need a hotel room. I just need to drive somewhere private and park out of the way. But it was more complicated than I thought. You have to park out of sight of homes and businesses so nobody can possibly be calling the cops on you. But you also have to park not so out of the ordinary, like trying to hide from everybody, that somebody will call the cops on you anyway. 

Everywhere have cameras. Mall parking structures may have security checking on you whether you want to steal other cars or jump. An empty corner of shopping malls may have others pulling up near you at any time. So I think private parking like the airport is a better bet, or public places with paid parking like parks or beaches.

So one warm morning when I have digested all the food in my stomach, I checked in my subscriptions to test my theory. It sort of worked. So I drove somewhere that I couldn't be bothered. I put my fully charged tablet on a floor mount with a very stiff gooseneck. Then I say hello to my current favorite girl, her images.

Not so fast. When choosing a parking space, I already had problems with the glare of the sun in my eyes. Now the tablet is very reflective even though I have an infinite amount of degrees of freedom in the orientation of the tablet. In my desperation, I dig up the car cover in the trunk and put it up like a curtain across the headliner. And since I have nothing to fix it I tried putting it over my head. But that defeats the purpose of parking inconspicuously in public with a cover over your head, lol. So I accepted that my tablet can't be in its most glorious state. Maybe next time I need a hood over the screen or a roof.

I left home because there are too many people in the house at times. Now I can close all the car windows and get rid of the headphones, with less sound leaking than earbuds. And I can blast anything and talk whenever I wanted to.

I like dirty talks, who doesn't? But it's hard for me to initiate and therefore reciprocated. I'm a decent person so it's hard to get started. And without practice, it can easily go wrong. Sometimes ladies tested me, whispering into my ears. But I missed it and they thought I am not interested. It wouldn't work anyway if I have to say pardon. Once I was with a girl that I was quite happy with. I showed her my fully erected dick and said, "I'm so big!". I was trying to say I am, or my dick is very happy with her. This amateur actually looked at my dick with a hesitant expression on her face, saying something like I'm not so big after all but absolutely not trying to insult me.

With full intimacy, I showed my girl what I have got, telling her what to show me and what to do. But I don't like private cam shows because it's just too expensive than real-life encounters. With less-private shows, it's hard to control the timing that I needed. Now with her pictures and videos, she is just all smiling whatever I tell her.

I find out that Google Photos has a pretty good interface. You can do a slide show on a mix of pictures and video clips in an album. You can pause and skip each one easily, I think. You can also loop a single video easily.

With eye candies, I like to kiss her, suck everything out of her mouth, and keep her tongue in my mouth. I like to lick and nibble her all over to satisfy my sashimi fetish. This I cannot do on the tablet but I can tell her what I wanted that I otherwise will not do or ask in real life.

Fingering is a common offering but I never enjoy doing that. If I can finger her to orgasm I'm interested but how many can manage that? I don't want to find out. Once a girl listed that she's also open for anal fingering. I kept that in mind. Actually, she was quite hot as a teen girl next door neighbor but just not outstanding. I pushed her lightly to turn over. Then I insert my finger without asking. People say it's not about sex. Yes, I feel so empowering that I can insert my finger into the airtight ass of a pretty teen girl. I was having fun probing like a kid playing doctor. Then she begged me not to go too deep. Of course, I can do that. I didn't know how to end this but I thought of telling her that I'm retreating to the bathroom to clean my hands.

I had a young girl who greeted me by walking into me almost naked, put her arms around my neck, all smiling and kissed away. For amateurs, I feel the tension on the back of my neck. I remember Caroline who made me so high that I have to unzip myself to let my dick out before continuing kissing. My thoughts ran wild.

Did I say eye candies work better for me than Viagra? I touched myself and I was fully erected before fetching my toys. In real life, at this point in time, I would have inserted my cock into someone's mouth or vagina. I had my fleshlight. It's not that I needed to fuck so much. But it feels so good to ease the tension. Being licked and sucked and squeezed feel so good when I keep expanding with no end in sight.

Being detached from a female body isn't at all bad. With a missionary or even doggy, there's so much you can see and do. But now I can still enjoy the show and the talking.

Most of the time, once I get over the initial penetration, I can last forever. But nothing lasts forever. I had to end it one way or the other. I began to thrust intensely.

The longer I lasted, the more I feel that I have to end it sooner by thrusting more intensely so that I am not torturing the girl. Once they are warmed up, I never feel that I'm hurting them physically. Mentally, I don't know, lol. So I believe that they want to enjoy it while it lasts, or get it over with sooner than later, rather than being gentle with it. I like the feeling that they are losing their mind. One girl, the only one I masturbated over her pictures instead of booking her, turned her face to me and started kissing like she was totally on fire and needed it. One girl, Tinkerbell, spread very openly on the edge of the bed when I was pumping her on a standing missionary. Since I wasn't holding her legs but her breasts instead, she had to stand on my hip bones and use her feet to grab my waist to keep in position. And Marget the schoolgirl who refused to get off her horse and rode me intensely to completion. And Chanel, whose big toes crossed and twitched when I was pounding her heavily like a dog. And her miserable expression in the mirror, like a kid being punished without her candies when I was holding her leg up, spooning her in and out with the full length of my cock, while grabbing her left breast with my remaining free hand uncontrollably, expecting her to beg for mercy at any time.

Then I shot profusely into the sheet covering my lower body while shouting any profanity that I can manage. 

Then the same euphoria hit me. It's true that it lowers blood pleasure, with all the physical and emotional benefits. Meanwhile, Milk kept smiling at me, blowing kisses.

I went home very happy and relaxed. My car is still in a mess. But nobody needs the car anyway.